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*coughing* Heyyyy there, Sua hereee!

SO i woke up this morning and half of my leggings were like just off, and one of my socks were off and i rolled over and almost fell off my high ass bed, but luckily i didn't.
But once i got up i realized how FREAKING cold it was like, ridiculous right?
and mind you i get out of this gloriousss hot shower, only to be shivering naked when i get back in my room ugh. thats the only thing i dont like about the mornings, they're so cold and its still technically "summer".

Boy i miss summer, well not this summer or the weather, but just the season itself like its such a happy season, full of icecream and water. well i dont care about the water part because im sure a LOT more people drown in that water in the Summer than they do in any other season._Duh Sua.

so i had math this morning, and it was a breeze as usual. i really regret not trying my hardest on my placement exam because last night i was sketching out my plan for the next 3 years and it just seems like i dont have enough time to do everything i want to do. basically u need 120 credits to graduate, but with my [potential] Anthropology major requirements, Pre-med requirements and GENed requirements [stupid], its like i'll be slitting my wrist faithfully for the rest of my life like idk how imma squeeze this all in, but whatever i'm determined, im a soldier.

i knew it would be rough, but it would be a lot easier for me if i was A)Richer or B)Smarter. which i am niether lol. mannnnnn can you imagine how much easier life would be if we were just a little richer? like damn, we would never have to talk about money. our hopes and dreams wouldnt be so diluted and shaped by money. like as much as people deny it we ALL know if money wasn't an issue we would not want to be frikken research scientist couped up in a lab finding the cure for dog measles...i mean i want to be a pediatrician like a lot because i want to HELP kids_flat. but if i didn't have to worry about money all the fuckiing time i'd be a lot more motivated and optimistic about actually reaching that stage and taking all these damn classes. for me taking these classes just look like someone stealing money from me that i don't even, am not promised to have from the future. can u imagineeeee someone just taking money that u couldve had when ur like 26 smh depressing.

but anyways i have class at 11:20...it's 11:03 but i was determined to blog just because i feel like im getting closer and closer to that explosion i usually have like 3 or 4 no 6 times a year. like im really like a bottle i repress certain emotions and so the bottle tends to overfill sometimes unless i find some other defense mechanism to re-repress these emotions. lol in most cases i dont so i just EXPLODE most times with anger, few times with just sporadic thinking and anxiety. wait whats anxiety? im not anxious like i think about killing myself_if thats what it means...just anxious like idk how to explain it.

UHM, i love fridays here, they rlly are the best days.. i meet SO many diffferent people at different schools and just have a lot of fun. saturdays are WEAK though, ugh dont get me started. uhm OH ugh the boys here, [the few straight ones] are mad cocky like its disgusting. like WOAH 1) u go to AU...who TF has heard of AU? lol no but forreal, and 2)if i put u next to anybody else in the realworld u rlly wouldnt be like worth shit. like yeah. surprisingly it seems like a few of the basketball players here are humble and nice people. ha! Go figure! who wouldve thought?

11:07
so this didnt turn out to be as random as i thought, yes *score!* its just about my life as of now, minus my family home life-_- and minus like anything else outside of AU.
i guess i can talk about "friends" uhm..dotdot i love the ppl i love all in their own ways, i love even more the ppl who i dont have to talk to everyday to still like be actual friends with something to talk about. like omg i saw a hs friend the other day like someone i used to actually talk to like communication_hello but it was so akward..we had nothing to talk about lol. which brings me to a beautiful.. wait did i spell that right [Bruce almight...B e A U-tiful] okay yeah i did. uhm right a beautiful memory of this convo i had with laye about life after highschool and Jazz. lol uhmyeah he's right.

i've come to realize a lot of people who've told me things in the past about certain people, situations etc...are gradually becoming "right".


i love my Anthro class_you should know this.
11:11
and i reallllllllllllly gotta pee. i like taking the stairs but only on the way down, cuz going up to the 6th floor with a backpack is NO fun. omg whew! uhm i wanted to put this coolASS picture i found on this blog...ehh will i have time? i gotta dash like jimmy neutron haha u should see how fast im typing ayeeee lightning...

Ciaaaao!
for Nowwwww!